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Dunkirk NY – NaMenWriMo (National Meniscus Writing Month) comes to a close today with this post. My knee is not 100% healed, and probably won’t be for another 3-4 weeks or so. My date with the doctor is December 20th for the final verdict, but I think it’s pretty safe to day that I am, let’s say, 85% mended. I still know I had an operation 3+ weeks ago, but it is rather amazing to think how well the recovery has gone in such a short amount of time. I still have a few weeks of PT and icing to go, but I feel safe in saying the worst is over. Yesterday I walked to and from the hospital for PT, and no real pain issues. No more baby aspirin after tomorrow, which means the specter of blood clots is probably gone. So it’s good timing; the end of daily blogging comes just as the knee is pretty much healed.

What next? As a general rule, I don’t write that much in this blog. I like to write when I believe I have something to say, which isn’t often. And as you can tell by my refusal to take comments, I don’t write this blog for clicks and giggles. I write for myself, not for others, and given the general tenor of the internet these days, I do not feel it’s safe to put much out there.

Neither is it that I don’t have strong opinions about issues. I do. Just last night my son, who is a concierge at a major urban hotel, and I got into a fascinating discussion about the practice of tipping. He’s for it, of course, while I, while not completely against it, feel the practice is uneven at best. I do like spirited discussions in person, but with reasonable people whom I can speak with fact to face.

I think one of the things I am going to try is to write a quarterly newsletter for people, so as the holiday season approached, I am going to send out holiday cards with the address of my quarterly newsletter. I’ve got one set up through Tiny Letter, a format I actually like. Writing letters is one of my favorite forms of writing, and setting up a tiny letter as a quarterly newsletter seems like the best way for me to stay in touch with others. Inviting them via a holiday card is also the best way to reach directly people I don’t see often or ever. I sort of see it as a substitute for Facebook in some ways. Subscribers get four emails a year with some news and pictures so as to keep up, and I don’t have to get on social media. I think it’s a fair bargain, and will be another incentive to write.

I want to be a writer in my retirement years, but I am not interested in pursuing the usual goals of writing. I don’t care if people read what I write, and I am not interested in interacting with anyone who does read what I write via the web. My all-time favorite blog is this one. I like it because the author writes about his passion for scooters (one I share), but at the same time he probably has a very minimal footprint on the web. His writing has a personal style, but he shares his personal life and experiences always through the lens (pun intended; he’s a photographer) of his scooter. That is what I need to find, that personal lens. If I can find that lens for myself, I think I’d become a better writer.

If you’ve been reading all these posts this month, thanks. They won’t be as frequent at this point, but hopefully they will be more frequent than before. Getting into the writing habit is of course the goal of any “national writing month,” and this is no exception. There is another one I am interested in – National Haiku Writing Month in February – and I may give that a shot. In the meantime, we plunge into the heart of the winter darkness. With two good knees.  -twl

Dunkirk NY – So there is no use in trying to write something merely to fill up space. PT, a little shopping, a nice dinner out, one child gone, and one left for another day. Nothing exciting here. You may move along now. 🙂         -twl

Dunkirk NY – Let’s make this simple:

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Dunkirk NY – Everybody has arrived safe and sound. Right now they are all playing a game of Clue while I am in the back room icing my knee, which gives me a moment to get in this post. No doubt the last few days of writing a post a day will contain some very short entries.

Today was a rather lazy day all told. It was windy and rainy, and so we spent a good deal of the day indoors. My middle son and I watched about three hours of cricket. The game has become a new way for us to connect, which is good. He’s always been a little envious of the way my youngest son and I connect about baseball. I have found cricket to be an entertaining way to pass the time, actually. I’ve now gotten a taste of all four types of cricket (T10, T20, ODI, and test), and they all have their good points. I already have a notion of going to England and attending a bunch of matches. I think it would make an unusual and interesting vacation. It also gives me more incentive to get to New Zealand and Australia to see cricket there. I wish, when I was in India, I had known more about the game, because India is a pretty cricket-mad country.

We enjoyed some pea soup for dinner. My youngest son took one of my best beers – a Sam Smith Nut Brown Ale – instead of the IPAs I had for him. I’m sipping an egg nog and Bailey’s. Tomorrow will be busy with preparing the Thanksgiving meal. Life is pretty good at the moment. -twl

Dunkirk NY – I went to physical therapy this morning, and I am finding the experience very different from the last knee. My current therapist is much more hands-on, while my last therapist was much more hands-off. When I went to PT last year, I got an initial set of exercises, an initial workup, and got some training in how to correctly do those exercises. When I came for subsequent visits, I would simply continue to repeat those exercises without much variation. The head PT would check on me probably once, and sometimes not at all. Towards the end he added time on a bike as well as some wall slides. I could do those same exercises at home. Very simple. I went for about six weeks and that was that.

This time around, my current PT (the first one retired) is much more hands-on. First thing was getting on the bike for 10 minutes. Then a series of stretches, only two of which were the same (quad tightening and heel slides). 4-way leg lifts, stepping exercises on stools, knee raises while walking, and some stretching/balancing/lunging exercises have been added. A 2-pound weight was added to my ankle today. Reps keep getting raised. It’s slightly more of a workout that last year, and Tammy is always on top of me, checking in, monitoring my pain level. It’s a much, much more active approach.

I don’t think one approach is better than the other. I tend to prefer the more laissez-faire approach, but I’m OK with the more active approach as well. Honestly, I think the actual act of physical therapy is, not exactly useless, but not really as necessary as one might think. The exercises can mostly be done at home, and good Youtube videos would suffice for training. The simple act of moving and walking and climbing my stairs provides good exercise. And the body itself tends to heal very well. What the PT does do is actually make me get up and get it done, which is the main reason I actually go. Being an essentially lazy SOB does not work well for me when I have to motivate myself to get this done.

I finished today’s session with a short walk from my auto repair shop after dropping the car in to replace a right rear wheel bearing. It was a very nice day today – sunny, with a high of about 52 degrees – so the walk felt good. As today went on, though, i started to feel a bit of pain, so I downed three ibuprofen and took a nap. My son is coming later tonight with his partner and her daughter, so I have to remain awake until about 11 PM, when they are expected to arrive.

So a lot of activity today, which felt good. I still tire somewhat after doing all this, which remains frustrating. But at the very least I feel more active and am slowly getting back into the swing of things. My holiday season is no longer the stressful time it used to be, but being able to be up and about while the kids are home certainly beats being laid up. I seem to have timed this surgery just right.  -twl

Dunkirk NY – I had a rehearsal last night for a benefit reading I am participating in for Shakespeare in Delaware Park. I always help out when I can with their fundraisers because I’ve been offered so many opportunities with the company all these years that I feel it’s the least I can do. I had to drive up in the dark since it gets dark by 5 PM now, and that actually took just a bit of adjustment. It’s the first time I’ve been out on my own for an extended period of time, and the most amount of driving I’ve done in over two weeks. I really don’t have much to do – just two small scenes – and we are doing all this on book. So it’s not all that taxing.

Nonetheless, I found that I had to get my leg elevated after a bit. It wasn’t that I was in pain or anything. It felt more like fatigue in the leg, like the leg was just getting tired. I also wanted to keep the leg moving as well, so in between scenes I walked around a bit. The rehearsal went longer than I expected, and when I got home I immediately slapped some ice on it. The biggest mistake I made, however, was stopping at Wendy’s and picking up two junior bacon cheeseburgers and small fries. I think that sat in my stomach all night and caused a bit of restlessness. The gig is next weekend, so I have until Sunday evening to rest before doing that again.

I think the fatigue factor is perhaps most annoying. I honestly don’t have a lot of pain, no more at this point than one would experience with, say, a sprain or slight twist. But I do at times feel the fatigue. Simple tasks like cleaning up after dinner or rolling the summer tires down to the basement are tiring. I presume my body is putting a lot of effort into repairing that knee, perhaps more effort than I can really sense. But like all recoveries, it gets boring to sit around all day and accomplish very little.

Yet that is another thing to consider – what is there to accomplish? And why should I be concerned about that? Perhaps I am over-concerned with this idea of getting things accomplished. The question has been on my mind since retiring, and at some point I need to settle this question. Not today. But at some point. -twl

Dunkirk NY – This morning I am enjoying the last bit of peace I am going to get for the next week. Starting tomorrow night, the house will be filled with 4 more people. One of them is 10 years old, and not my grandchild. Not that I mind, but it does mean my usual routine will be interrupted, and my house will be fuller and busier than normal.

Times like these make me realize how much I have become used to having the house be a refuge for peace and quiet, and how much I like it. When I retired, I gave myself three years to allow the stress of work to shed itself from my system. I figured after 43 years of working, it might take that long. And it has. I enjoy getting up a little later, and my usual morning routine is now quite relaxed. I am seldom ever ready for the day before 10 AM. Recuperating from the knee surgery has added a bit to my ability to shed a little more stress and be less antsy about having to be somewhere or do something. I think I still need goals and things to accomplish, but at the moment I am letting things come to me as they appear. If a show comes, all well and good. If I have to go out and take care of Mom for a bit, all well and good. If I have to spend 4 months in Washington taking care of my daughter, all well and good. If there is one thing about being retired, it’s knowing that there is no “work” to get in the way of getting things done or doing certain activities.

So having a collection of “invaders” in the house is going to disrupt my new-found routines. The 10-year-old will be getting up early with me and I am pretty sure I will be feeding her breakfast. Her mother and both my sons will sleep in late. There will be a lot of activity in the kitchen, and I have been working my way back to taking over kitchen detail, which is my usual household responsibility. Some cricket will be watched, football as well. It will be a little more noisy, and I am sure the 10-year-old will demand constant attention in some way or another (not to mention a little discipline here and there). This is all pretty normal stuff, but when you have become used to a slower, more peaceful routine, I imagine it can get a little stressful.

I’ve never really experienced to a very great degree all the holiday tensions people seem to have as I read the news. Politics was never an issue in my family, despite the fact that two of my brothers are fairly conservative (the two without BA degrees). My children are all to the left of center. We get along pretty well as a whole, so there is seldom any conflict. This is of course not to say there aren’t family stresses. We simply tend to ignore those whenever we get together, which is actually rather seldom.

So I expect any stress this week to come simply from the increase in activity around the house. My sense of relative solitude will be a bit shaken, but not to the point where it’s insufferable. I enjoy Thanksgiving and having the kids about. As long as when it’s over, they return to their homes. The paradox is that, as soon as they leave, I will miss having them around.  -twl

Dunkirk NY – I’m a little late getting to this post today. Nothing much to report on the knee. In fact, I think at this point I am not sure the knee is worth discussing. It continues to improve, I am doing physical therapy, icing is ongoing. I have PT booked until the end of the first week in December. Yesterday I began doing a little walking and stair work between the parallel bars. There’s little pain, but the soreness still remains after a workout. I’m really well on the way to saying that I am A-OK, but gaining strength back will take a couple of more weeks. So I don’t know how much I will have to say about the knee unless something goes awry, but I don’t expect it will.

I read something yesterday that gave me some pause. I am a very amateur haiku writer. I am drawn to Zen and Eastern philosophy in general, and I find haiku to be a wonderful way to relate Zen to art. I have written a number of haiku, but in truth I have no idea how good they really are. I’ve never submitted them to a journal or anything like that. Few people have ever read them. Naturally I have been cruising the internet to see what’s out there in terms of guides or insight to learn how to write better haiku. Haiku is tricky business, because like most art, it’s so subjective.

In my cruising, I came upon an essay that was very dismissive of the 5-7-5 form. The general public, when they think of haiku, usually thinks of a three-line poem consisting of a line of 5 syllables, a line of 7 syllables, and a final line of 5 syllables. Japanese haiku consist of 17 on, and it was thought early on that an on was the equivalent of an English syllable. This was discovered to be a false comparison, but the image of a haiku as a 5-7-5 poem persists in the general culture.

I don’t think the 5-7-5 form should be dismissed so easily. I have in my head an essay that will come to the defense of the 5-7-5 haiku, but I may post it on Medium and not here. I also found out that there is such a thing as NaHaiWriMo (National Haiku Writing Month), which is February (the shortest month of the year). I am considering writing nothing but 5-7-5 haiku for the month just to be ornery. I believe one can write a very good hailu following the 5-7-5 formula, and while I may not as yet be good enough to prove that, I think simply the attempt might be worth it as a challenge.

I’ll leave you with a 5-7-5 haiku for consideration:

cold aurora dawn;

leaves dance to the rhythm of

the wild wind – why rake?

-twl

The Eternal Flame at JFK’s grave at Arlington National Cemetery

Dunkirk NY – Well, here it is, the end of another week. It’s the 56th anniversary of the assassination of John F. Kennedy. I know people right now think this whole Donald Trump situation is a mess, but the 60s were no political picnic either. From JFK’s murder to the resignation of Nixon and the final withdrawal of troops from Vietnam, the era was pretty politically turbulent. On top of the introduction of the Goldwater factor to the Republican party and the subsequent election of Richard Nixon twice, there was a lot of unrest in the streets. Street demonstrations and urban rioting were the order of the day. What’s going on pales in comparison, most notably the lack of any visible demonstrations of any size at all. The outrage of the 60s found its manifestation in people out on the street. Today it’s all social media, a watered-down version of the same. Polls find people are overwhelmed, exhausted, and indifferent. So I am not paying much attention to the whole thing. There is no way the Senate will convict at any rate, but the game must be played out. I’ll make my voice heard at the ballot box in a year. Other than that, not much to do, really.

The knee progresses fine. I have another PT session today, and have already done my morning workout. We have to get serious about final plans for the holiday visits, as everyone will be here by Tuesday night. The Thanksgiving week will go fast, I think. Before I even know it, November will be gone, and December will be upon me. The next question to face after that is whether or not to escape the winter for a little while, or suck it up and stay in the area. I have some Mom care issues to deal with in the winter, so any snowbirding will have to be worked around those dates. Decisions, decisions.  -twl

Dunkirk NY – It’s now two weeks since the surgery, and today marked an important event. I took my first turn behind the wheel of a car since the operation. My wife and I went out to do a little holiday shopping Part 1, and she allowed me to get behind the wheel and test the leg out (not without some misgivings). It felt good to be driving, since driving is one of my favorite activities. I experienced no pain at all in terms of leg pressure to the pedals. Sitting behind the wheel was fine. I suspect the upcoming longer trip on Sunday will tell whether or not my legs get stiff from sitting bent, but I should be OK.

Walking around the grocery store was also OK. The knee still feels stiff and walking is not exactly easy, but there is no real pain to speak of. What seems to be more at issue is the sheer physical exertion. Having sat around the house for the past two weeks, part of the issue is now stamina. If I were working, it would clearly be too much to go back to work and put in a full day. The hardest thing to do actually is stand still, and waiting in the short line was challenging. By the time we got back home, I slapped some ice on the knee to relieve the soreness. I think there is a difference between soreness and pain. The knee feels sore, but not painful. I also ended up crashing for a nap this afternoon, so I think my PT exercises, which I did in the morning, will not be getting a second round. Had I not gone out and walked about I’d probably get them done. I did eye that electric scooter car for a few seconds, but in the end decided that the shopping trip was going to be short enough that it would be better to test out how well the leg was doing.

The weather continues to be typical – grey, overcast, temperatures in the lower 40s with some wind chill. The snow that fell on my first weekend home has hung on for far too long, but is finally showing signs of disappearing. I haven’t yet felt the need to break out the SAD light, but it sits there up on top of my filing cabinet, waiting to be plugged in. I bought a cheap six-pack of daylight LEDs and will be replacing some of the lights in the house with them.

I am also getting hooked a bit on cricket, and am beginning to understand the game a little bit better. My middle son became a fan of the game, and he suggested it’s the perfect antidote to the baseball off-season. And he has a point. It has the same leisurely pace as baseball, but if you think pace of play in baseball is a problem, don’t watch cricket. I took in a test match between Australia and Pakistan last night, starting at 7:00 PM, and by 11:15 the match was still going on. It takes five days to complete a test match, and this is the first test match I have been watching. I took in some of the Super50 Championship matches this past week. Super50 is a different game than test cricket, designed to be much quicker (50 overs per side, highest score wins). I’ll probably be doing a larger post over at Joy of Baseball (which is losing a little joy this offseason) talking about cricket as an antidote to lack of baseball.

Thanksgiving is a week from today, and my two boys will be here for the holidays. Brian will bring his partner and her daughter, so there will be six at the table. That will be nice. Thanksgiving is my second-favorite holiday after New Year’s Day. I like NYD because it’s a holiday that is completely devoid of obligations of any sort. Thanksgiving in my family is bigger than Christmas, so if there is any holiday for which my kids come home, it’s Thanksgiving. My daughter unfortunately can’t come from Seattle this year, as she wants to put in as much time at work as she can to make up for the time she lost to the accident. The menu is pretty much set, we’ve begun the shopping, and my wife’s nesting instinct is on overdrive. I am looking forward to a good holiday.  -twl